2019: Time to Get Comfortable with Feeling Uncomfortable

Yep, even more than we felt in 2018.

Does this pic make you uncomfortable? ME EITHER! And that's a really big deal for me ya'll. I HATE studio portraits. Until I met the right photographer.

Don't Step, JUMP Out of Your Comfort-Zone

2019 — the year to take risks. the year to get comfortable feeling uncomfortable. the year to turn dreams into reality. the year to live your truth. As I write this, my mind is uncharacteristically quiet. calm even. words that typically flow through my thumbs are nowhere to be found. my mind is stuck in neutral — much like my career and drive the past few months. it’s weird. it’s uncomfortable. it’s the exact opposite of how I lived my life until now. a life meticulously mapped out by 6 year old me. the plan was to make the world a better place and for the world to know my name. i planned to become a news reporter [TV host], a singer (😂?!) and a CEO all before my 30th bday. i turn 28 next week. so basically i’m right on track... right?! fast forward and two goals remain — 1) make a positive impact in the world. 2) create badass, unbiased content that provokes real conversations and sparks positive change. [hi @VICE! 🙋🏼‍♀️]. so, how does one (finally) turn their dream into reality? with a new headshot, duh. kidding. but really, it’s a start. navigating my way through this industry has been a slow, often directionless journey… i’m itching to dive back into work (let’s face it, FUNemployment is only “fun” for so long)… but where to start? or better yet, WHEN? not during the holidays, that’s for sure. i impatiently waited for a sign. something, anything to guide and motivate me. today it came — a Dropbox link to my final TV host headshots. (TY @rjlewisphotos!!! 🙌). Believe it or not, I dread photoshoots. they’re awkward. i’m awkward. it’s awkward. to my surprise, this shoot was different. i felt invincible. i tuned out the ridiculous advice from “America’s Next Top Model” and did me. when I looked through the final shots today it hit me, “i’m doing this. i’m really going for it.” Not gunna lie, it’s uncomfortable af living without job security. but i’ve made peace with the decision let go of the traditional career track in order to pursue my dream. success is never guaranteed, but if you want something bad enough, isn’t it worth the risk?.

Take risks this year. there’s no telling where they‘ll take you in return.✨